In my last post, I mentioned about the bleeding issues I've been having. I called my regular doctor and she told me to come on in for my yearly exam in her office instead of going back to the OBGYN from heck.
SHE had no problem doing a pap while I was bleeding, and even performed an endometrial biopsy at the same time. I researched what that was, and was prepared for some serious pain. The night before my appointment I ended up having killer cramps, so I popped some Aleve and hoped for the best. I had been having serious cramps on and off with all of this bleeding, so I was hoping that the biopsy wouldn't hurt as badly as some women reported.
When I had the test done, there was some discomfort, but honestly, compared to the cramps I'd been having, it didn't hurt at all. Of course there was bleeding, but since I was already bleeding heavily, I don't know how much could be attributed to the biopsy. My doctor said it was one of the easiest she'd ever done because my cervix was open from the bleeding.
My blood tests showed that I was anemic (what a shocker, huh?), and the biopsy came back clear--so no endometrial cancer. But what was causing that mystery bleeding? I had to have an ultrasound for that answer. (And of course, there was all sorts of drama with that, as well---I swear that nothing ever happens the easy way for me)
The results: I have a fairly large (large enough for surgery) fibroid tumor in my uterus and a suspicious cyst on my right ovary that they want to re-examine in six weeks. Based on my own research, I'm fairly certain the tumor is a submucosal one, and my doctor told me that it is taking up 2/3 of my uterus. Right now it is 1 1/2 inches by 1 inch, but since it's causing all of this bleeding, pain, and infertility, it needs to be surgically removed.
This means no FET until I get this taken care of. And since I'm limited in my area as far as specialists go, I am at the mercy of THEIR scheduling...I'm still in specialist limbo, which as far as I'm concerned is a special level of purgatory here on earth that I'm hoping will result in a few extra jewels for my crown up in heaven.
What I really need is another miracle. Like the woman in the Bible story, I long to just touch the hem of Jesus' robe and be healed. With my family history, leaving this tumor in place is not an option. It will eventually lead to cancer---my aunt's oncologist told all of her female relatives this, so we've all been really proactive when it comes to gynecological issues. I just need a miracle where a doctor will see me and perform the needed surgery ASAP. I'm hoping that I can have the least invasive option, but if I have to wait for several months, the tumor could grow large enough that I might lose my uterus. I don't want that, obviously, but I'll trade my chance at motherhood for a longer life with my family and husband.
So, prayers would be appreciated. I'm not even sure what to ask you to pray for, but God knows the best thing for me. I guess just pray that I will be able to accept His will.