As you know, I've been struggling with a way to physically memorialize the daughter I lost. I'm still going to put in a flower bed this year just for her memory, but that's provided that it stops raining long enough to dry things up enough to till the soil...but I'm thankful for the rain, because it's God's way of cleansing spring. I just wish it hadn't rained for 20 of the last 30 days!
Anyway...I've been following this blog: http://namesinthesand.blogspot.com/ for some time now, hoping against hope that I could send in Elizabeth's name. I always managed to visit the site when the request list was closed, but finally got in last week. Today I visited, and there it was, such a gorgeous picture, loving made, with her name written in the sand. The lady who started this has herself lost a child, and has created a ministry from that loss--she lives in Australia by a white sand beach and every week she takes that list of names and writes those childrens' names in the sand. She then takes a picture of name, sand, sea, and sunset for the family to remind them that each life matters--no matter how long it was on this Earth.
This is the closest thing I have to a Mother's Day card. It's the closest thing to it that I'll ever have from my daughter. I'm going to print it out and frame it and put it on the wall. It will come with us no matter where we move, and it will serve as a reminder that once upon a time, I was a mom, for a fleeting moment, to a beautiful daughter. That seems to be a fitting tribute. And one day in heaven, where I'm sure we'll see a comprable view, Elizabeth can show me how she can write her own name in the sand.